I am awake but would rather not get out of bed
The pain in my heart is bigger than the knowledge in my head
It’s not that I am ignorant; in fact I heard everything that HE said
That should count for something; but only if my heart meets my head.
HE said at the appointed time all this and much more will come to pass
I heard HIM loud and clear and rejoiced because that means “this too shall pass”
But I’d be lying if I claim I do not wonder how soon seeing I am here bound by time and space
Oh c’mon, you say where is your faith? I cry “help my unbelief and hasten my arrival at that place”
I am seated in church but my heart, and now my mind are weighed down by deep despair
Once again, the pain and unrest in my heart overwhelms the knowledge in my head and its unfair
“…make all grace abound that having an abundance of all things, you may abound to others”, they say
No wonder my head and heart agree; they both bear witness to the sacrifice and generosity and cheer
Hard-pressed but not crushed, persecuted but not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed
Here too my head and heart unite; they both see the reality and deep sorrow of a soul hard-pressed
Funny how the origin of the affliction is at the same time the source of all hope and peace restored
Hence the very reason why one more day or … in this ditch of darkness can very gladly be endured
Afterall, HE is not surprised by my disappointments and frustrations
HE can very well bear the anger and outbursts and yelling and confessions
From a soul smitten and broken and empty of life itself yet sold out to HIM forever
Because when all is said and done, and heaven and earth pass, it’s HIS way that’ll last forever.
“I consider that our present suferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” – Romans 8:18
June 28, 2014
Journey with Della 