Journey with Della

Arrrggghhh!!! Is this really who I am?
I was just 12 years old and already felt like I was living someone else’s life. Wanna know why?
I am fourth in a family of six and the second girl unfortunately (no, just kidding). In my childhood days I realized that my older sister was admired and adored by many people. She seemed to just be perfect in the way she went about her life. Not only was she very intelligent in school and top of her class all the time, but she seemed to exude so much confidence in her every encounter. So basically in my little mind that was so desperate to locate my purpose in life, I figured that I could have the sweetest life if I just did everything like my sister. With everything figured out, or so I thought, I set about doing everything just the way I would see her do. She did not know and I don’t think she knows up till date what a model she was to me when we were young and still is actually (I think I need to call her right after this and let her know).
Strangely, rather than simplifying my life like I had thought, everything seemed to become more complicated. But being as young as I was and knowing no better, the harder it got, the more I admired her because I thought she too had to go through the same struggle to achieve the results that she did. So with the slogan ‘nothing good comes easy’ deeply ingrained in my mind, I worked harder at being my sister in hopes that I would win the admiration of others as well. Unfortunately for me, that was never the case. I was left feeling frustrated a majority of the time and still did not win the approval or admiration of significant others in my life. Suddenly I found that I was starting to resent my sister and had no idea what that seemingly insignificant resentment would result in subsequently.
Frustrated, I let out a large scream and wondered ‘who am I anyway?’
Though not immediately, it later dawned on me that while I was busy spending my time trying to be me sister, no one was being me. No wonder it was so hard. So what is the point?
The only person you can successfully be is you and no matter how hard you try, you can never be someone else so why keep working at it?
Embrace your uniqueness and join me in the fun world. That is the way God (our creator) intended it to be.
Arrrggghhh!!!!!?